6.#EmergencyRoomAndBeyond

Today I ended up back at the hospital due to some post-op complications from my surgery two weeks ago. Not what I had planned but like I posted about when I had my surgery - sometimes life takes a turn, and you can’t control it. It’s been super frustrating to say the least and I spent majority of my day sitting in the emergency room, but I have to put my health first. It’s hard for us mamas to slow down and focus on ourselves when we are so used to taking care of everyone else.

My mind instantly jumped to “Is this my fault?” “Did I do too much these last two weeks after my surgery?” “Could I have avoided this bleeding and pain?”

But honestly, I’m choosing to not blame myself and trying to slow down because I have no control over things like this. It’s very hard for me to slow down and do less but I also know that I can’t take care of others if I don’t take care of myself first.

Endometriosis gets both tougher and easier as the years have gone on. Tougher in the sense that it’s completely unpredictable and feels like it controls my life some days no matter how hard I try to stay in control. But easier as well in the fact that I know much more of what to expect after all these years and all these surgeries.

I know exactly where I want my IV placed every time.

I know my entire health history and can explain everything to each doctor that comes in the room.

And I also know that they need to bring me two heated blankets almost every time because it’s freezing in those exam hospital rooms.

I say all of this not to get sympathy but honestly just to show what’s on the outside doesn’t always equate to how someone is feeling on the inside.

I may look healthy on the outside but most days that’s one of the hardest things to explain to someone who doesn’t understand or know anything about endometriosis. My appearance or attitude on the outside doesn’t always portray what’s happening inside. There are days where my endo completely encompasses and controls my life (like today) but then there are other days where I do my absolute best to take my health into my own hands and try to keep a positive attitude.

You can do anything you put your mind to, and I truly believe that your attitude can be changed just by your mindset. Take care of yourselves FIRST mamas. You are important too and your kiddos need you to be healthy for them.

xoxo

Celina

#DontEverGiveUp #YouCanDoHardThings

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